John 9:39

Jesus continues, “I am here in this world for a reason, my friend. I come to declare judgment: That those who are sightless might begin to see, and those who have sight might lose it.” John 9:39 EFP 

What an interesting statement by Jesus to the man. The man has just reconnected with him after an intense search after their initial encounter, his spiritual eyes are opened and he responds by confessing his belief in Jesus as the Son of God, and then worshipping him then and there.

Somewhere in the midst of that worship-fest, Jesus interjects this declaration regarding the reason for his presence in the world—to judge between believers and wannabes. Believers know they are blind and need to be given sight. The wannabes have all the trappings of sight, but they are blinded by the very Light of the World that has come to give sight to the blind. The decision to give or lose sight is within the person receiving the gift. The very gift of sight works only for those who lack it, and not on those who already have what passes for sight, but that actually is blindness. It is this spiritual blindness to which Jesus is referring.

I haven’t always seen God the way I see Him today. I am learning that God is not seeking so much as sacrifice and blind obedience, rather He is looking to draw me into a love-relationship with Him. I have come to realize that I do not naturally love. I am selfish and self-centered at my core, and unless God changes that I will never experience the life He created me to enjoy. God will teach me to love Him as He already loves me through a living and loving relationship. I am sorry for all the time wasted in trying to attain something that I can never attain; something that is the byproduct of loving God and seeking to know and love him more every day.

I do not want to be blind or blinded ever again.